We successfully made it through another holiday season! This year I was with Cliffs family for Christmas and it was weird not being able to participate in the delicious holiday adult beverages or hot tub time that is forever known as “the trust tree”. 🌳 If you have seen the movie Old School, you will get that reference.. if you haven’t seen it, go watch it immediately! Its hilarious. Anyways.. As much as I enjoy those holiday festivities, I am totally fine with missing out because of this important thing I am doing called growing a human! 🤰🏼
Do you remember my last post when I mentioned it was really hard waiting an entire month before having a doctor visit? Well that hasn’t changed. In fact, I had a small panic the other night while trying to go to bed. I told Cliff I was getting worried because I had not felt the baby move yet. The doctor told me that could start happening anytime after we hit 18 weeks. Well I am at 19 weeks now and my natural ability to be impatient is getting to me. After WAY overthinking the fact that I hadn’t felt anything yet, I realized my next doctors appointment was still another week away and that made it even worse. I was in bed and whined to Cliff for way too long about how I wished my appointment was this week. I’m sure he was secretly laughing at me in the dark but he told me everything would be fine and my appointment would be here before I knew it. 😖
I just realized I haven’t mentioned the other important reason why this time in the pregnancy is giving me some anxiety. This might put a few things into perspective for you.. or maybe further convince you that I am just crazy..
At my first appointment with Dr. B they did a sonogram and that’s when she informed me that I had 4 fibroids growing along with baby. 🙄 Fibroids?!?! I’m shocked!!!!! She told me they were at various stages between 4 and 6cm and most likely wouldn’t cause any issues, but..
*sigh* here we go…
..but sometime around 18-20 weeks, my body would have to choose between feeding baby and feeding the fibroids. At this point my brain starts screaming DEATH TO FIBROIDS! DEATH TO FIBROIDS! Almost as if I was trying to convince my body to launch WW3 on them immediately. The good news was that she said the baby always wins that battle, but..
there’s that word again..
..but if the fibroids grow to 8cm or larger by the time I reach 18-20 weeks, then the pain of them dying off could feel like I am having an appendicitis for a few days. She said there was no guarantee that the fibroids would get that big so I might be okay.
Umm… what??
Did she even read my file from Dr. K??? My body has a masters degree in growing fibroids whos mission in life is to take over the planet starting with my uterus. Of course they are going to grow!! So basically what she told me was that I am going to feel like I am dying but not to worry because its no big deal. 🤨 How could she even say that with a straight face?? How is my stomach feeling like death no big deal?? When exactly is the most appropriate time to panic about the baby? Because I’m pretty sure I started the panic feeling while sitting there in that appointment.
They didn’t do a sonogram at my second appointment (even though I practically begged for one) so there is no telling how big those fibroids really are right now. Luckily, other than one night of being extremely uncomfortable, I haven’t had any epic pain yet. With my luck, I’ve probably spoken too soon and it will hit me tonight. I have long suspected the fibroids just wait until they sense I am at my most calm and not on alert and that’s when they strike!
My appointment next week is the anatomy scan of our baby boy! I had a good cry after making that appointment because the only day they could get me in was 2 days AFTER Cliff goes back to his rig. I am hoping my next one will be able to happen while he is home though! He hasn’t even met the new doctor yet.. sometimes life’s just not fair when you are an oilfield family. We keep joking that maybe he will get to meet her when the baby is born. His mom is going with me and we are both super excited about that! When I asked her if she was busy that day, she didn’t even hesitate and immediately said “I will be there!!” I have the best mother-in-law ever! 😊
I know for a fact I wont be able to fully calm down until I see him and hear that beautiful little heartbeat again. I have already opened that worried little can of worms in my head and there is no going back now! Logically it makes no sense to worry but have you ever tried telling that to a crazy hormonal pregnant woman?? If you don’t like being verbally abused or sarcastic eye rolls, then I don’t recommend it. Its going to be a long next few days! ❤️
You are going to have an awesome, awesome dr’s appt. and everything is gonna be great! Remember to pray every time you feel anxious b/c the Bible says to be anxious for nothing. Like I said earlier today, enjoy the baby bump now b/c when you feel him move for the 1st time {while that’s exciting in itself, very huge milestone} it’ll be the beginning of many sleepless nights due to him wanting to play while all you want to do is lay still & sleep. Lololololol You are loved beyond description.😘