Good! Good! Not great…

So the obvious question is, how did the pre-transfer ultrasound appointment go?? The title of this post really says it all but let me explain..

One of the things they checked was the thickness of my lining. They were hoping it would be at least a 7 and I was at an 8.2 so that part was good! 👍🏼 When they looked at the top of the uterus where they want to transfer the embryos, they said it looked beautiful and were very happy with it.. so again.. that part was good! 👍🏼 The not great part came when
they found a small amount of fluid in the mid to lower part of the uterus. 😕 The second I heard those words, I could sense myself slowly starting to lean on that panic button in my head that I have been trying to suppress for weeks now. Just to refresh your memory, the reason our transfer was cancelled last month was because I had fluid in the top part of the uterus where the embryos were supposed to be transferred. Put simply..

Fluid in uterus = Bad = Cancelled transfer = Super sad Danae 😢

The difference this time is that there is a lot less fluid, its not in a critical place, and it doesn’t seem to be blood but more like mucus. Even though this is different from the disaster that was last month, my doctor said he really doesn’t want there to be any fluid at all for transfer. Miraculously, they didn’t instantly cancel our transfer date! 😄 They thought the medications I would take to prep for it might actually help my body absorb or get rid of the fluid. So we are moving forward!

But.. yes there is a but..

They want to check me one last time before the transfer. I have an ultrasound appointment Sunday (the 17th) which will determine if we get to transfer on Tuesday (the 19th). My doctor has always been 100% honest with me and told me that if he thinks the fluid might be an issue, he will recommend we wait another month. 😞 Remember that panic button in my head I mentioned before? We moved from leaning on it to hugging it with that one sentence. That transition must have been very apparent on my face because my doctor and his nurse both said “but don’t panic yet” multiple times after that lol I told them I hadn’t actually hit the button yet, I was just keeping it close in case of a panic emergency that required instant button pushing… If they didn’t think I was crazy yet, they probably do now! 🤪

Since the transfer date is still on, I started all the required meds that night. In addition to the patches and daily shots I was already doing, I got to add 2 different pills twice a day and a vaginal insert. Yes you read that correctly.. vaginal insert. That annoying little addition wouldn’t be so bad except it has to be done 3 times a day! 3 times!!!  Whenever I wake up, take a lunch break, and get ready for bed I have to do that. Not the most comfortable thing to deal with 24/7! Here’s what my current med supply for this looks like and also here’s a pic of Mr. Echo trying to shake with me because he thought that’s why I had my hand out.. you can see his lifted paw in the picture! 😂

I would be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous and a little worried about my appointment tomorrow. There is a very real possibility that our transfer will be cancelled again and we have to wait another month. But there is also the very real possibility that everything will be fine and that’s the hope I’m holding on to. This is the closest we have ever been to this happening and I want to feel that excitement as long as I can. Regardless of what happens, I know we can handle it and will keep pushing forward like we always do. Just like Cliff keeps telling me, eventually one of these appointments is going to go our way… Please Lord let that be tomorrow ♥